Steve Expounded Thusly:

Good options. I think I will be choosing #3 AND #2. I had started another e-mail this morning, but you know what? He won’t listen to ANYTHING I have to say. So why bother? I told him what I needed to without being cruel or derogatory. Well, okay, maybe a LITTLE derogatory. Or snide. But I think that has to be the end.

I imagine I would AT MOST make two more Wednesdays over the summer. In actuality, maybe none. But I will not choose to protect him. What am I protecting, anyway? He thinks I’m all bullshit, so who cares? He would think no differently of me had I chosen like he wanted.

So ignore him it is. Back to where we were last summer.

What’s a bummer is I think I will be missing going to Pride this year with Cameron and Doug because of Van. I have done Pride with them for many years. I sorta consider it a tradition. Oh, well.

Ah, and we dated for a year and a half. Then we were friends (and lovers for a while) after that. He said in his December e-mail (which was really VERY cordial and friendly-sounding) that he felt he could not be himself while he knew me, and now he CAN be himself. So I imagine this kind of immature tantrum stuff and the two-faced-ness is who he really is. What a shame.

Thanks for the input. It heps to hear from people on these kinds of draining emotional issues.

Steve Expounded Thusly:

Yes, I NEED to put it out of my mind! THis is not my problem any more. And I don’t have “feelings” feelings for him, but I do miss that we were once good friends. It will always hurt a little to look back on all this.